In recent months, I am actively looking in my past! Who am I? Where from did I come? And also why did I come? These questions have made me restless.
Who Am I?
For a number of years now, I have been wanting to work on our family tree. Obviously, have not been to. Reason: my findings do not move beyond my great great grand parents. On both the sides. Unlike in the West, there are no birth, death and marriage records to be found in India. I tried my best. British, during their dominion, did record these events, but seeming only for the baptized. From my dad's side, my uncle and grandfather and great all worked in Tehasildar's office. I went on line to see if I could find some records there. Government of India has a online portal, that has begun recording these details, but these are fairly current. Someone told me that there could be some records in Kashi. Every family in the past, and many continue now, made one pilgrimage to Kashi. And in the temple there is a priest from each community. And there is a linage of priests who have been recording all the people visiting and their vital data - birth date, place, Gotra etc. And this seems to be the fact. But now my next stop in this search is going to be our attic in the ancestral home. For now, my family tree is only 3 generations strong!
Where from did I come?
The itch finally made me send my cheek swab to National Geographic Genographic Project. My markers tell me I belong to haplogroup R1a1, M17. But then stops 10000-15000 years ago! OMG. Now what do I do? I went to ancestry.com. But I believe, none of my brethren from India or of Indian origin has dared to step in.
Why did I come.
Destiny. And I do believe in rebirth. I have faith in the scriptures of Sanatan Dharma (Hindu) and recently I have been even studying these in a group study setting under a learned and knowledgeable teacher. So far so good. I came because, I had unfinished business. Period!? A recent reading of "Many Lives, Many Masters" by Brian Weiss has increased my disquiet. His book states more than has been obvious as to us of Eastern beliefs. This book and another by the same author says that now I can find out about my past lives under regression! I am marching towards that.
Hopefully, I will soon have all three answers.
very nice writing & the way of thinking is very good idea..
ReplyDelete:) You actually went and searched for your origin ?!
ReplyDeleteGood ya ! I won't be able to go beyond my 'Aaji & Aajoba'! Both the sides ! :)
`मी'...पूर्वी कोण होतो या पेक्षा काय आहे व काय व्हायचेय वा कोण होणार ....याचा ध्यास अधिक योग्य नाही का ?
ReplyDeleteअनघा, but as you go beyond, intriguing it gets! I am really no where close to lot others but one day I will like to break the 'code'-even if just for myself. I will look for you in Shivaji Park sometime in November and discuss! (I am kidding).
ReplyDeleterajiv, भूतकाळ नेहेमी वर्तमान काळाला कारणीभूत असतो, हे मला पटलय. त्याच भूतकाळाचा उपयोग भविष्य काळाकरिता आपण कसा उपयोग करू शकतो, with the freedom of choice in the present, is always in our hand. That's the reason, I believe, I must look at my past.